I guess I can't be certain, but honestly I've never been into stims despite having the means and money to get whatever I want drug wise. I just crash so hard from everything and it ruins the whole experience for me. I have had the 200mg of meth for ~6 months, and have had 4g of quality mdma, ~60 20mg adderal xr, a good amount of ritalin, 70mg of vyvanse, 3.5g of really good coke, and 1g of mephedrone all just sitting in my fridge for the last 1-4 years untouched.
I used to love mdma, but the crashes got too bad by the 6th or so time (even when spacing 4-12 months apart and not dosing higher than 200mg total). Now I havent given it up for good, but it's been a solid 3 years since I rolled last and the idea of having to go through 3 days of misery for a 6 hour high doesnt sound fun to me any time in the near future. maybe if I meet a girl I like I would do it again with her.>>4005
I got it for free a while ago. Gotta love free samples from new vendors on the dark net! I've gotten all sorts of stuff, some really good and others never showed at all, where I only had to pay shipping. Basically, after getting out of this relationship I wanted to do something hopefully hedonistic, crazy, and maybe even a little productive. So I just decided "fuarrrk it, might as well see what the hype is about". I choose IV for the same reason. I have some training doing blood draws and have IV/IMed a decent amount of DMT/DPT/K/MXE/etc and I take sterilization super seriously. Anyways, I know that IV meth is not healthy. Im not trying to rationalize it as safe, just that I think I do a better job being sterile than your average tweaker. However, I honestly don't see myself doing this again (or taking meth any other way) as I can already tell im going to crash super hard starting in the next couple hours and regret this whole thing.
Downers on the other hand I have to watch myself around. I used to have a little problem with benzos a few years ago. I wasnt addicted or anything, but I would frequently take some, decide to take more, and then black out and do the most batsoykaf crazy things you can imagine. Like filling up a bunch of balloons with paint in order to pop them all over the carpet for "art." Luckily I grew out of that and just keep 4 1mg klonopin around in case I or a friend freaks out on a psychedelic.
I also had a little problem with Tramadol and Kratom for a few months about a year ago. After going though Tramadol WD I never want to let myself go down that road again. I know Tramadol is kind of a baby opioid too, and I was only taking 400mg a day. Im glad that I have such bad allergies to everything, so that every time I take a classic opiate/oid I spend literally the entire high super uncomfortable scratching at my face and body. The few times I've done poppy seed tea I ended up with big cuts and bruises from scratching so hard for 12 hours straight.
honestly, I'm much more of a psychedelics, weed, and sometimes dissociatives sort of guy. I like to experiment and see what else is out there, but nothing really sticks with me like those three. I don't even drink. It's funny, I can sit quietly, feel great, and just chill on 400ug of LSD despite being nearly blind with visuals, but I will guaranteed vomit everywhere, feel like soykaf, and possibly make a fool out of myself if I drink 3 beers.
wow I really am still feeling the meth. Sorry for the wall of text, I hope it is at least mildly entertaining to someone. I didnt even clean like I intended too. I just wrote code and listened to music all night.
much love <3