Right now I'm sitting in my campus cafeteria, alone. I had dropped of and this is the first time I've been here after five years. I want to resume my studies and will fight for it. At the same time I feel so alone. Also my whole body is shivering from my need of heroin. Yes I am a junky trying to give up on heroin. So I'm shivering and feeling cold and alone and wishing someone notices me and comes and talks to me and gives me the connection to the outer world I need so much right now. So I reach out to you guys, since noone is going to talk to me right now the weird junky who sits alone over there. Thanks all for being here for me, I promise I will be there for you
>>10340 I have some programming skills and I also used to be good at martial arts. Things have gone downhill the recent years but I'm trying to get my soykaf together the last months, getting rid of my addictions, socializing again and stuff. I'm studying math
things arent gonna get easier but please dont give up. Someday you will meet someone or do something that never would have happened had you still been on heroin. You cant see the doors opening but they are. Good luck.
We all have our bad moments, and when it hits it is like kicking dead whales down the beach bad. But if you stop thinking about the present and just keep focusing on improving yourself, I assure you it will pass eventually.