How famous you want to be exactly?
I might be kinda wrong, but to get famous, you have to not want to be famous. Take vomir for example, he does Harsh Noise Wall and never striven for fame, yet he's a biggest name in HNW.
Your last bit sounds like something Sleazy and Jhonn from Coil would say.>on a brighter note i also want to show people they can be themselves if that makes any sense. like even if i have to compromise, i want something to shine through in whatever im doing thats uniquely me and that makes other people want to shine as well. even if they are hated for it.
If you don't know them, look them up. Sasha Gray was their fan precisely because they made her understand to not be ashamed of what she does, no matter what.