its more that i will come here every so often, make a flurry of really inspired posts, and then have nothing to say for a long time.
i'm trying to change my internet habits to slow down, and so more effectively bridge the gap between technology and reality. its really becoming too much nowadays, its not even enough to avoid social media anymore. i've been considering making an effort to come to places in this net-sphere and actually talk more, set up habits, you know. my issue with lurking is that im only consuming and producing nothing, and it eventually leads to information overload and everything just blurs together in the end. i think its probably alot better to reinforce thoughts, feelings and habits by talking about them..quality over quantity.. i think its becoming very important to slow down and carefully plan your time and actions, moreso now than ever these days, there is a war going on for our minds... but look at me, rambling.
i almost feel weird posting here as well, but thats probably because i am just used to my opinions and idealism being shunned or misunderstood by now and i feel weird talking in general. still trying. i think spending time around like-minded people instead of trying to fit in in places i probably dont belong would help, but even here i have been met with some pretty judgemental, confused and unkind people when i express certain sentiments, and it leaves a sour taste in my mouth.. its better than most places though, and i guess its impossible to agree with everyone.