I also feel like I should report what I've done every week or so I'll keep doing this, if nobody minds.
downloaded + started reading the book, not super far through yet, and I meditated the other day where I did some things better and some things worse I think.
>what went better
the anxiety. Feel less uncomfortable exploring my body and becoming aware of things, as I tried to do the syncing up between my breathing and rhythm (I dunno if I should call it that, basically the feeling of blood pumping out of my heart and through my veins). There was still discomfort, but it was more manageable, maybe because I now know it's normal. Thinking about veins, tubes in my body has been a source of anxiety (think those mental traps where it's impossible to stop thinking of something until you distract yourself, and you feel like you're going crazy as they continue) a while, though, so I'd be pretty glad if it went away as a result of this. I also instead of trying to kill all thoughts worked to empty my mind of everything I didn't want to focus on at that exact moment, which worked to an extent but my thoughts would wander eventually. I also wanted to sync up with sounds coming in from around me, such as the cicadas chirping or music that's playing, but this feels like it would be extremely difficult at my current level anyway, because I'd have to at least control my heart rate.
>what went worse
Distraction. I meditated in 10-15 minute intervals where I would keep trying to become consciously aware of all of my body, explore around for a bit, take in energy like you said, but the issue was that I had decided to text somebody right before and kept interrupting meditation with responding to messages. This of course affected my thoughts during meditation but in other news I think I have a slightly better understanding of our relationship and some other one. Still bummed that I didn't think about anything like my homework for school or how I was going to fix my schedule on doing it (aka not wait until the last minute). I feel like the distraction made the meditation much less effective today, because things were kind of ehh and I was irritable for the rest of the day. That could be a variety of factors though.
also as a side note that's more /lit/ related I like to get physical copies of books by whatever source, because the idea of building a personal library appeals to me, but also because I like writing in books and then passing on those books to others so that a library of commentary and marginalia interpretation gets built up, and it becomes a kind of heirloom, where each generation gives it new meaning. Which is why I might eventually buy a copy of Mindfulness in Plain English to mark up and eventually gift somebody special.